Sometimes I wish you were more social and that you would play outside with the other kids more. But then I remember that I also desperately need my alone time and I love that we are so similar in that aspect.
Sometimes I wish you weren't so darn stubborn, but then I think about how your determination has served you well in getting to where you are now in your life.
Sometimes I wish you didn't have to deal with your hearing loss, but then I think about how you would not be who you are had you been a hearing child and I cannot imagine for even a second not having you, Jazzie, in our life.
Sometimes I wish you would use words to get your point across instead of cry, whine and scream, but then I remember what a miracle it is that you are even able to use words to begin with.
Sometimes I wish that I didn't have to look at piles of paper, pencils, stamps, markers, stickers, etc. on the floor, but then I think about how wonderfully creative you are and I absolutely love that part about you.
Sometimes I wish that the SWI in China had realized you were deaf so that you wouldn't have felt so isolated, but then I remember that if they had known, you would have been labeled as a SN child and we would have missed out on getting you as our incredible daughter and that I cannot even fathom.
Sometimes I wish you would go to sleep earlier instead of staying up so late reading, but then I think about how wonderful it is that you love books and that you are such a great reader.
Sometimes I wish that you were not labeled as a child with a disability or a child with an IEP, but then I think about how wonderful and amazing it is that you are making such a big impression on everybody (teachers, neighbors, friends, family and doctors) despite of it.
Sometimes I wish that you didn't feel such a strong need to be in control of everything and everybody, but then I think about the fact that I'd rather you be a little bossy than a push-over.
Sometimes I wish you were a little bit more open with other people, but then I think about that it is not necessarily a bad thing that you wait and observe a person before letting them in 100% versus blindly trusting just anyone.
I want you to never forget that I would never change who you are, because you are amazing and so very special. I love you more than I could ever say and I am beyond proud of you.