It may look like an ordinary key chain to you, but certain things on here have a very special meaning.
As you may know, I have been on the Weight Watchers program since last May. I go to my meeting every Tuesday morning. Not only is this the place where I get weighed, it's also the place where I get a lot of support and information. I know that not everyone attends meetings and I also know that plenty of people do great on the program by themselves. For me however, attending the meetings is key. It keeps me on track, it helps me stay motivated and it helps me stay responsible. Towards the end of the meeting we always take some time to celebrate each other's success for that week. Most of the times it's people sharing the amount of weight they were able to lose in the past week, but for certain milestones, Weight Watchers gives it's members certain rewards.
When I lost 10% of my starting weight, I earned this key chain:
When I lost 25 pounds, I got a charm to add to my 10% key chain:
It felt good, but I knew I still had a ways to go.
The next reward was a charm with clapping hands with the number 16 on it, which represents 16 weeks of consecutive meeting attendance:
The next one was a big one - the 50 lb charm:
Fifty pounds is a lot of weight and I was thrilled to receive that charm. However, today's meeting proved to be an even more exciting one. I earned yet another charm for my key chain:
75 pounds GONE!!!
Carrying these charms around on my key chain is a constant reminder of how far I've come and how much I NEVER want to go back to where I was. They may add some weight to my purse, but I will GLADLY carry these charms on my key chain instead of the 75 pounds I was carrying on my body.
Today is a good day. I reached a huge milestone and I am very proud of myself and I feel absolutely fabulous.
Several people have asked me if I ever took a before picture. The sad thing is that I never wanted to have my picture taken and if I did, I usually deleted them immediately as I could not stand to look at myself. However, last night while looking back on some older entries on the blog, I came across a picture of Matt and I at a fundraiser two years ago. I can't believe I even saved it, since it is really hard for me to look at:
It doesn't even show my entire body, but when I look at myself here, I just see an unhappy and unhealthy person who is trying to hide herself. It is hard not to let those old feelings of self loathing and thoughts of disgust enter my head.
That is why I will post the picture of Matt and I at this year's gala one more time :-)
No self loathing and disgust here.
Thank you Weight Watchers, you've changed my life.