Like I mentioned in my last post, I do not have a lot of pictures of myself from the last 10 years or so. For the past 15+ years I've struggled with my weight. I did a lot of yo-yo dieting, but never reached a point where I felt truly, 100% comfortable with myself. There was a lot of self loathing and I spent many, many hours talking negatively to myself. So whenever I saw pictures of myself I would think how ugly I looked, how fat I looked, how horrible I looked, etc and I would promptly delete them.
On the rare occasion that I did post pictures of myself, I was either hiding behind something or someone, they were taken from a flattering angle or it was during one of my lower weight (but far from ideal) days.
The following pictures are in the family reunion albums. I couldn't scan them, so I took pictures of them. The quality is not the best, but you get the idea. These are hard for me to look at, let alone post them here for everyone to see, but I need to remember where I am today. I need to remember how good I feel today; how much more energy I have and how much more confident I feel. I need to remember how I could NEVER go back to the way I was, because I actually like who I am today :-)